Sunday, April 14, 2013

Fairfield Excursion Photos

The dining room wall at Strawberry Farm B&B in Muscatine.
Fresh veggies at the Fairfield Farmer's Market.
Wall mosaic in an alley off the Square in Fairfield.
These bikes were so cheerful and bright.
This mysterious cloth just appeared in my pants pocket minutes after I arrived at the Farmer's Market. I am certain that the pocket was previously empty. A gift from Beyond?

A beautiful breakfast nook with a view.

This old tree left a big footprint.


Jefferson County Courthouse in Fairfield, Iowa.


Ganesha--my oliphant spirit guide.



Interior of Revelations

White paper bathroom shade makes cheerful light.


Having a stringy hair day!






Pergola and sky.

Rocky in his spot.



Sassy in her spot.

Statue of Fairfield Liberty

Fascinating fungi on tree



Singing tree!

Fairfield Farmer's Market and Other Miracles



Daddy died this morning.  Maybe he left us now because he knew I was going to need a guardian spirit.  And I felt all day that he was somehow helping me.

Attended the Fairfield Farmer’s Market today at the Fairfield Senior Center.  Met some wonderful people, including Cary Spray who runs the market and generously allowed us to participate (since I wrote the book and their rule is you have to make it, bake it, cook it or grow it,   I passed muster).  The cost was only $7, and I made nearly a hundred—a big help in offsetting the costs of two nights in a hotel.  


 The next person I met that really made a connection was Cindy Buck.  She and I had an interesting conversation about Psycards and spiritual paths and related topics.  She purchased a Psycards System as a gift to her friends in New England and she also got a reading.  I mentioned that we were looking for someone to host us in our camper until Monday or Tuesday and she said, “I’m the perfect person!”  She lives only a few blocks from the Farmer’s Market location.  As it turns out, she is also an English major (she had Annie Dillard on her coffee table) and after we were parked at her place, she and I had a nice discussion about literature, including my novel about Bartleby.

The next interesting lady I met was Maija—who shared so many wonderful bits of information it is impossible to include them all here.  She did share that she knew someone (or was related to someone) who had just completed their degree in Depth Psychology with an emphasis on Jungian Archetypes—the very program where I am considering obtaining my Ph.D.!  What are the odds?  She, too, bought a reading and a Psycards System. 

After the Farmer’s Market closed, we went downtown to the square, ate some lunch and went to find the “Om” bookstore.  What we found was Revelations—a coffee shop and book exchange.  They do occasionally carry new books, but very limited and mostly about Vedic stuff.  However, Betsy, the owner, informed me that I could arrange a book-signing and workshop plan over a weekend.  Book-signing on Friday, workshop on Saturday, and then the store would display the book or product for a few weeks after the event.  Definitely on the list—incorporate this with another Farmer’s Market and the weekend become not only affordable but profitable. 

Then, after we parked in Cindy’s driveway, a woman arrived and approached the RV.  She initiated a conversation about the RV and somehow we launched into who we were and what we do and she immediately shared her work.  Raenite is a creative woman like I am—she is an artist, a designer, a musician, a storyteller.  She makes origami greeting cards and hand-made greeting cards.  She makes natural fiber clothing.  But perhaps the most important thing she shared is her current project.  Her CD titled “The Blizzard and the Black Wolves of Iowa” which I gather is a combination of stories she’s written accompanied by the same stories in song and other songs that enhance the stories.  There are also other materials that accompany the CD—a “resource list” for one. 
Raenite and Cindy's dog, Tucker

I told her I write reviews and she has graced me with a copy of this work.  Until I have truly listened to it, I cannot tell you more, but I look forward to the journey.  I shared with her information about the Iowa Metaphysical Fair, where I think her merchandise will do well. 

But the synchronicity of our meeting, and the meeting with Cindy (Raenite is a friend of Cindy), and the connection with Maija was magical and left me feeling reeling and light-headed, but elated.  This radical faith thing seems to be working out.  Thanks, Dad!

NEXT POST:  Fairfield Photo Essay--coming later today!

Friday, April 12, 2013

A Long Story...



Warning:  This is a long posting…long story

This is being written on my new USB keyboard which I purchased in an attempt to substitute for the built-in keyboard of my laptop computer.

Yesterday Rocky bumped my cup (sealed) of Pepsi over and it rapidly leaked out onto my keyboard—for the third time in a week.  But this time, the amount which actually made it into the keyboard was a LOT.  Enough, apparently, to cripple the keyboard completely.

Experts consulted recommended replacing the entire laptop and I went to Wal-Mart, but couldn’t justify spending our last $300 on a new computer.  Then there would have been no money for the hotel (all the campgrounds are closed until May 1), nothing to live on and no immediate income. Instead, I stopped myself from panic and thought for a moment.  What if I get an auxiliary keyboard?  Maybe that would work.  And it does, and now I feel like a genius.

The last three days have been a wild roller coaster.  We left Eldridge Wednesday morning (April 10) heading for Pennsylvania so I could go to my father, who is dying following a major stroke. 

What a morning! It started with having to repack the rear storage rack because a plastic tub with merchandise had water inside and had to be saved. So we repacked and re-bungied and re-tied in a cold wet rain.

We went to the Casey’s General Store and filled up both tanks with gas.  And the RV wouldn’t start.  Forty-five minutes later, we called AAA.  I explained to the customer service rep that we didn’t need a jump start, that we needed a roadside mechanic who could come and tell us why it wouldn’t start.  We had battery power and the starter turned over, but the engine just wouldn’t catch. 

An hour and a half after that a young man called us (he was lost—in Eldridge!) and we directed him to the Casey’s.  He arrived driving a mini-van, got out and started to hook up his jumper cables.

When I explained to him (not very nicely, I’m afraid, we had been over two hours in the cold, windy, rainy weather and even though we were inside the RV, it was getting bitter and miserable) that we didn’t need a jump, he didn’t know what to do. 

I went inside Casey’s and borrowed a phone book, and found a mechanic nearby (like 4 blocks).  The man from Petersen’s Automotive was kind enough to bring some tools and look under the hood.  He determined that we were getting no spark.  He agreed to work on the RV immediately if we could get it to his shop.

We called AAA for a tow truck and went inside Casey’s to get something hot to eat and wait.  Finally AAA called and said they had found a tow truck that could get us to Petersen’s.  But apparently the dispatcher this time assumed that we had some kind of giant RV.  I tried to tell them we were a class C, basically just a Ford van with a big ol’ camper built on top.  I guess they weren’t listening.  So, they said they found a tow company who could get us, and it was on the way.  Half an hour later, they called back to tell us that our tow truck had been selected at random by Iowa Department of Transportation for inspection and there was no telling how many hours that would take.  But AAA assured us they would keep looking and keep us posted.

By now we were chilled to the very bone and miserable.  I was still grieving, of course, about Dad and wanting to get underway.  I was also mystified why the Universe would put this kind of unnecessary frustrating delay in our path.  I tried to console myself with the idea that we were being saved from something even worse.

We called our friend James and had him bring our Ford Explorer to us.  At least it would start and create heat.  A little while later, I told Rick he had to get me out of here.  I just wanted to go somewhere quiet and warm where we could sit and wait.  So, we found a little local tavern and settled in. 

AAA called again—a young man named Stephen this time—and told me that he found a tow company in Bellevue, Iowa and they could come and get us in about two and half hours!  I looked up Bellevue and found it was way north of us, above Savannah/Sabula—fifty-two miles and an hour away!  By now, Petersen’s wasn’t going to be able to fix the RV that day (it was now about 2:30 PM and the mechanic left at 3:00), so Stephen found another repair place in Eldridge—Automotive Central willing to stay open (Zach was our contact man there) after 5:00 PM to get us on our way.  The irony is that Automotive Central was exactly four-tenths of a mile away.  In all those hours, I could have pushed the RV that far.

Around 4:30, we headed back to the RV to wait for the tow truck.  Rick, on a whim, tried to start it.  You guessed it, it turned right over, no problem. 

Rick drove us to Automotive Central while I called AAA to cancel the tow truck.  Six hours and we had yet to receive any meaningful help from AAA.  Zach at Automotive Central was quick to respond, but he couldn’t find anything wrong with the RV (we call her the Honey Bee).  We were free to go, to get on our way.

As we pulled onto Interstate 80 East, I received a message, then a phone call from my sister Shannon.  My brother John had returned home to Las Vegas, Dad was not expected to live the night, and there was no funeral planned.  My stepmother Helen could not afford a funeral (we’re not a wealthy family), so we were having Dad cremated and sometime this summer, we were going to plan a get together that fit everyone’s schedule to scatter his ashes in Shoop’s Cemetery in Harrisburg, where my grandmother and grandfather, Aunt Marie and two stillborn children of my Uncle Sam and Aunt Marion are buried—the family plot.

So, there was no point, you see, to us going right now.  And I realized that she was right.  Instead Shannon arranged for me to talk to Dad on the phone, where I said my last words to him.  (I told him I wasn’t going to say goodbye, because I knew he would always be with me.)

Instead we reverted to my original plans for this weekend—a visit to Fairfield to work on an article for Acres USA on the Maharishi Vedic City Organic Farm, and to Ottumwa to see Dani Lin, an Iowa psychic, give a little presentation on Saturday at the Historic Ottumwa Hotel.

Downriver we went.  By now it was 6:30 or so and it would soon be dark (well, darker).  We headed to Muscatine and planned to stop at one of the several camping places in that area.  Except they were all closed.  We check four of them.  We had no idea what we were going to do. 

Now, remember:  the Honey Bee has cracked holding tanks, so there is no toilet facility, and no running water.  She also has no propane right now (a matter of economics), so there is no heat and no cooking except for the microwave.  The space heaters we have and the microwave need electricity to run, so we have to plug in.  We have no idea yet how to run the generator.  So wherever we went we needed a bathroom and an electrical outlet.

I thought briefly about the time we spent in a B&B in Muscatine on Valentine’s Day 2012.  Maybe they would let us park there, I thought.  I didn’t mention it because we were still checking out campsites.

A little while later, Rick said, “What about the folks at the B&B in Muscatine?”  That confirmed it—this was our next step.  We stopped at McDonalds to plug in the laptop, look up the number and Rick called them.  We were welcome to come and spend the night.  Such nice people.

(BTW, if you ever want a truly pleasant and peaceful visit to Muscatine, try the Strawberry Farm Bed and Breakfast.)

The weather was even more dreadful after nightfall and the rain was just cascading from the sky.  Finally Rick was able to get us parked next to the barn and plugged in, and we settled in for a well-deserved night’s rest.

The next morning, we pulled out and headed toward US 61 South.  As we pulled up to the stop sign where we would turn onto 61, the Honey Bee stalled and refused to restart!  I felt sunk—I dreaded the idea of another day in awful weather, cold and damp, waiting for possible bad news.

We called AAA again, an off-duty police officer helped us back downhill onto the shoulder, and I went in the back to do some work on the computer.  Rocky jumped up on the table and spilled my Pepsi all over the laptop keyboard—just as the tow truck arrived.  I had to leave the laptop for later.

The driver was very nice and helpful—I learned that we have a one-ton chassis and 16-inch tires and that’s what we should tell AAA the next time we need help.

Again, when we got it to the shop, it started right up and ran just fine the whole time we were there.  They couldn’t find anything wrong either and for the second day in a row, there was no charge for the work.  (Miraculous!  One usually gets charged exorbitant amounts just to have a mechanic look at your engine.)

Off we went again, toward Washington, Iowa, where we stopped at a WalMart for lightbulbs for the RV.  Jim at the Washington WalMart was stellar in helping us find the right thing and helped us with some other things—he was an expert, it seemed, in marine and RV stuff.  We were constantly being helped by these amazing strangers.

After shopping, the Honey Bee again refused to start.  I had read that many WalMarts allow RVs to stay in the parking lot, but I knew they wouldn’t let us plug in.  I really did not imagine living in an RV to include sleeping at Walmart!

But after awhile, she restarted and we proceeded to Fairfield.  There we had dinner and found a local tavern again.  Local taverns should never be overlooked as potential places of information and helpful people. 

Our bartender was great and we shared stories and he tried to help us find a place to plug-in for the night.  But it was no use, and we finally had to break down and find a hotel room.

We were directed to the Best Western, where the front desk clerk went out of her way to help us get the deepest discount she could find.  And they were willing to take our cats, too.

Today, we wrestled with what to do about the computer and how to continue to finance this excursion that has quickly become frustrating and more expensive than we had planned. 

The Best Western here in Fairfield is one of the best I have ever stayed at.  The staff are friendly and helpful, the rooms clean, the bathtub is big enough even for Rick, and the included breakfast is hot and varied.  They even had real butter.  After a night’s sleep in dual queen beds with fresh crisp sheets, the hot breakfast was like manna from heaven. 

I called around and found that the local farmer’s market will let me set up a booth tomorrow.  I spoke to Barbara at the organic farm and may get a chance to visit tomorrow afternoon (doubtful) or first thing Monday morning.

I paid for another night here, bought the keyboard instead of a new laptop and now I am once again functioning.  We still need to find a place to park/plug-in tomorrow and Sunday nights, but for now we are all warm and dry and well-fed.



Tuesday, April 9, 2013

How it all makes sense...

Now I know why we were so long delayed here.  We would never have been able to make it back if we were in California or Oregon.  Now I know why I haven't been able to successfully schedule any events this month.  I've been waiting on the Will of Heaven, on Divine Timing, and now I know why.  So I could be here to respond to my father's stroke.  It is only 900 miles from here--and we will be there Thursday.  Hold on, if you can, Dad, but if you can't, then go home with the angels gathering around you now, and know you carry with you all my love.

Heading East to Say Goodbye

My brother John and our father John Anastasios Anthony

Yesterday, my brother John called me from New York.  He lives in Vegas.  He was just about to board a train from New York to Lancaster, PA, where my father was in a hospital having suffered a massive stroke.  Medical authorities don't expect him to survive.

Tomorrow, with a grieving heart, Rick and I will be heading for Pennsylvania to hopefully see my father before he dies.  Today, he was moved to hospice care.



It is of course a natural thing to outlive one's parents.  And we must say goodbye, give them our love, and keep them in our hearts.  But it is a hard good bye.  

My Daddy was a jazz drummer--first and foremost.  He was always a musician and was a musician to the last--the last day before the stroke, he went to rehearsal.  At age  76.  He was a vital and active person, running his own commercial cleaning business.  Always funny and charming, with high energy and a quick wit.

He liked to play chess.  He loved history.  He studied world religions.  He taught me words like “reincarnation” and “pyrotechnic exhibition” and “defenestrate.”  

Music was in his blood.  I don’t know how many times he told me he was “giving up” the music business.  I never got to sing with his band, something I wanted to do since I was four years old. It is a loss I will have to live with.  But he never really did “quit” the music business.

He liked cigars and I always knew when Daddy was home because I could smell his cigar.  I love the smell of cigars.

His quick wit was often corny—too many jokes stolen from the Borscht Belt comics.  He was always the comic in the band. He told me once that I could not tell him a joke that he didn’t know the punchline for.  I learned every joke I could.  I know a lot of jokes, but I never found one where he didn’t know the punchline.  

I have been proud my whole life to brag to people that my Dad was a jazz drummer.  He was cool, you know?  When I was in the fifth grade, Dad stopped by my school for something or other  My classmates saw him.  All those nasty kids who mocked me and ridiculed me and beat me up.  Suddenly, I wasn’t so bad.  “Was that your Dad?” they asked.  “He’s so cooool.”  “He a musician,” I said with pride.  And elementary school wasn’t as bad after that.

Dad loved women.  He flirted with all of them.  His polite, corny charm had a way with women. All of his wives and girlfriends can attest to that. I think he was a romantic at heart, looking for a kind of dream love.  He was often engaged quickly after meeting a woman, though most of the relationships failed.

Dad taught me about equality and about prejudice.  He had friends of all colors—they had a common denominator—music.  I remember he visited a lot with the cook at the restaurant where he was manager—Schindler’s Restaurant in Camp Hill.  Whitey was an old man when I met him.  He was the chef who carved the roast beef and the ham on the smorgasbord line.  I loved Whitey.  He was always so nice to me and he used to tease me like Daddy did.  Oh.  I forgot to mention that he was black.  I never noticed, and I don’t think Dad did, either.

He taught me about stereotypes, introduced me to critical thinking.  He was driving me home from school one day and I remember I said something about a friend of mine from the neighborhood—I can’t remember what it was, exactly. 

“What makes you say that?” 
“Well, she’s Catholic.”
“How do you know she’s Catholic?”
“’Cause she looks Catholic,” I told him.  I realize now that it was actually an early expression of my own intuitive nature to know things about people just by looking at them.  But Dad had another lesson for me that day.

“Really?  What does a Catholic look like?”  When I couldn’t answer that, he proceeded to share with me that we can’t judge people by their looks or what we think they are.  Although the details are lost, the lesson remains. 

He taught me about helping others.  When I was about 7, he took my grandmother (his mom) and I on a trip to visit his brother, Uncle Lou.  I had fallen asleep in the backseat of the car and was awakened suddenly when he stopped the car, pulled over to the shoulder of Interstate 95 somewhere in Virginia or North Carolina, and dashed across the median and all four lanes of traffic, to pull victims out of a car that had crashed on the northbound side.  Once they were freed, he set out flares and began to direct traffic.  He stood there in 102 degree heat and directed traffic for a half hour before the ambulance and police arrived.  He was that kind of a guy.  I attribute this experience to my own later desire to become a disaster responder for the American Red Cross.  I joined ARC's disaster team in 1991, became a full-time "volunteer" (as an Americorps VISTA) in 2001, where I helped victims of the Mississippi River Flood in June, and later served in New York helping victims of the World Trade Center terrorist attacks of 9/11.  

When I was little, he was the most fun father ever.  He played horsey-back rides and tickled me silly.  He took me places, like duck hunting, which I hated, and Dutch Wonderland, which I loved.  He never talked down to me and because of that I developed a good vocabulary at an early age.  You know, defenestration and reincarnation and pyrotechnic exhibitions.

I will miss my Dad.  I will always wish we had more time together.  But I am grateful for what we did have and I know that next time—next life—we’ll both be better.  In the meantime, he lives still and always in my heart and in the traits and values he passed to me and which I have passed to my children.  

I hope he holds on long enough for me to hug him one last time and tell him I love him.  But I know that he knows this, and even if I don't get to see him one more time, I will be there for the funeral.   

My Daddy at age 14.



Monday, April 8, 2013

Photo Essay--Spring 2013

The last full moon in the house--March 2013.
March moon in the mother oak.

The view from my office window approximately two weeks ago.

Blue skies at last.

The ruts remaining in the frozen mud after having AAA tow us out.



The remainder of the furniture and household goods went to the Salvation Army.

My office in the RV.

Front-facing in the RV, with office on left.

Rear-facing in the RV, our galley, bed and bath.

Eldridge Day Three



Our third day in Eldridge.  Spent the last two days moving out here, and re-organizing the interior of the RV.  It rained a little night before last, enough to check that my tarping of the rear cargo carrier kept the important things dry. 

I eliminated probably another 100 pounds of stuff—mostly by going through my clothing choices.  Choices that were made 10 months ago, when this was supposed to be a two-year excursion, mostly far away from our storage units.  What made sense then—indoors with this plan in my head—makes little  sense now, so most of the “warm” clothing for winter and bad weather has been relegated to storage, as well as many redundancies like electrical cords and bathroom supplies. 

When we arrived, there was a Kokopelli symbol to greet me—on Mary’s jacket in the kitchen.  I took it as a good sign that we had come to the right place for our beginning.  James and Mary have been very cordial and tolerant of us, and I hope we haven’t been too much of an inconvenience. 

Rain came in the night, cascading like marching waterfalls, wave after wave of warrior water, a battle of the season’s change.  April showers. 

I woke around 5:30 AM, frightened, feeling isolated, almost trapped.  We’ve done it, I thought, and felt adrift, lost at sea, panic poking at my heart and belly and lungs.  Prayer helped ease the anxiety, and around six, I was driven from bed by the list of things to attend to—and the need to write a blog entry.

This past week has been nothing but work—hard work, physical work, and my body is screaming at me.  My neck is objecting to the cramped sleeping quarters, my back says it doesn’t want to lift another thing over five pounds, and my right arm tendonitis (elbow and forearm) is throwing a screaming hissy-fit.  I try to placate them with Ibruprofen and the occasional hydrocodone.  I simply have no choice but to keep on.

After my fearful awakening, I asked myself if I wanted to be here or be back in the house, interminably waiting for something to let us move forward.  The thought of that empty, echoing, bereft house was enough to drive me from bed, determined to push through any untoward emotions. 

Last week was spent in last minute packing and re-arranging of items within the RV.  Each day brought a new discovery—where the cat bowls should go, how to keep things neat, where and how to stow tools.  So, each day brought a new approach, a tweaking to our methods.  I suspect this learning curve will continue for some months to come. 

Friday, we moved the last of the things from the house to storage.  Our friend’s nephew, Eggy, was helping Rick to load our little Rubbermaid tool shed onto the roof of the Explorer.  As Rick stepped down off the rear of the vehicle, his weight nudged the vehicle just enough to make it jump from park, and the car began to roll down the hill.  

Our friend, Hutch and I were in the RV when Hutch said, “Momma, I think Rick’s truck is moving.”  I looked out the front window and I saw tall Eggy holding with all his might onto the back of the Explorer, trying with sheer strength and force of will to stop its downward flight.  Rick was running alongside the moving SUV, trying to get into the driver’s seat.  I hollered and exploded out of the RV, running as fast as I could, thinking if they could slow it down, I could jump in and stop it. 

Rick had the driver’s door open now, and the vehicle was picking up speed.  He grabbed the steering wheel and managed to get his left foot inside the door.  Now he was hanging from the side of the Explorer, like a cowboy wrestling a bull, hanging just inches above the ground.  I was terrified he would fall and the rear wheel would run him over.  Because he had hold of the steering wheel, the vehicle turned to the left, toward a telephone pole.  I feared the worst.

Then, miraculously, the vehicle came to a stop, just inches from the curb.  Rick was still hanging out, but he had managed to get his foot on the brake.  He pulled himself up into the driver’s seat and put it in park.  Eggy and I caught up to him.  He was laughing—his natural good humor and optimism shining joyfully in his face (his safe face!).  Eggy and I hugged him and cried with relief. 

Of course, it was our own fault, loading a vehicle facing downhill, without the parking brake on and the wheel were not turned into the curb as they should have been.  But thank Rick’s guardian angels for protecting him and us once again.  Rick says he’s been “keeping my guardian angels busy since 1962.”  I’m going to buy him a t-shirt.

Also on Friday, I woke with the premonition that we HAD to leave the corner of 13th and Scott today.  It was nice weather, and the first weekend of spring.  I had a bad feeling about what might happen if we were sitting out on the street like that, an open target of hoodlums and shooters.  We had to go.

Sure enough, we learned that over the weekend, there was a police stand-off with shots exchanged on our corner.  Police with guns drawn walked the neighborhood, looking for an armed suspect.  Who know what might have happened if we had been there?  Thank God I listened to my intuition.

Today, I am going to attempt to make some sense of my files and paperwork for Psycards.  Perhaps I can eliminate another 40 pounds of cargo...